I painted this nearly two weeks ago and i had not yet found the right name to call it. but i have decided to call it 'ninshasa2' it's a word from my native language which means that 'i am hurting' its the second part in what i hope will not turn into a series because honestly everytime i try to paint i can only think sad thoughts.
Today a workmate said something, that might have seemed quite ordinary to anyone else but i found it very unnerving and i completely flipped out. I dont know what is wrong with him, i am losing all sense of self control and i dont even know what to do about it anymore.
Sometimes i just wish i could turn off everything and forget about life, i am such a mess, but what worries me most is the fact that i don't even know what to do about it.
Lord , I need help
